January 11th.

Im back again. School life is a smash man. Its been barely just two weeks and fire already started burning. When quarrel all they say is that they're 17 or turning 18, and they seen more things den rachel they all, Im turning 18 this year too, I dont seem to be like them, keep repeating the same old phrase of being 18 and all. U guys seen things some have not even seen? How bout me? Im not boasting or what, but have u guys been through what i been through? losing someone so close to your heart when you're barely 15? Have u seen you whole family break down in tears infront of your own eyes? Have you? Have u been put in a position whereby you are given a chance to say whatever u want to the person u love the most and the person is dying, but u just cant open your mouth. have you? have u been through what i been through? Quarreling with your best friends and just that instant moment, you guys turn from friend to foe. and Im not refering to edwin they all. Those current group are just superficial, all nice when things are going great, just wait till something serious happen, then you'll see. You guys always say u seen alot of things, the fact is, You guys seen nothing.NOTHING. I've seen nothing too. But i dont go around acting as if i've been through lotsa hustle and all. Wait till you guys step into my shoe and you'll know. U been down once and sometimes, Its always hard to pick yourself up. You'll never know, You'll never ever know what its like. Sigh. I aint got the fucking mood to blog no more. Im out man.Things are still the way it is, I dont see any improvement compared to the past,previous post says it all.